The way you always tell me how much taller I've gotten, despite the fact that it's been a period of a day since I've seen you; how you always hold a smile on your face no matter what kind of day you have; the love you show for all your grandchildren as if we were your own; how you always told my sister how much prettier than my mom she'd grow up to be; how you always put up one hell of a fight to take your medicine; how you were always the light or joy and laughter for every family gathering; how you always took me to the park, or the church just the two of us to play and have fun; how you picked me up, fed me, took care of me for my whole childhood; how you were there for me through everything I've done; how you tried so hard to get better, even when we took you to so many hospitals, and put you through so many surgeries, you never complained; how you held my hand and gripped it, despite that you couldn't move or talk; how when I tried to feed you, and you couldn't move, you still tried and managed to eat, making me so happy; how no matter where I went around the world, you were always there by my side going with me; how you opened your eyes and smiled for the last time..

I miss you, and I love you so much Ong Noi, and I can't hold that in any longer.. Your smile, your voice, you being there for me, the person I can tell anything to.. One of the few people I'd ever show my tears to. Putting on a smile everyday, just to hide the fact that I'm so lost without you. I miss being able to come visit you 3 times a week, going into your apartment being greeted with a warm welcome and a hug. How am I supposed to go on knowing those things are over? I can't express how much I love you, and how much I need you in my life. You were more than a father to me than my real father. He worked through my whole childhood, and so did my mom. So who was the one there for me? You and Ba noi. You two are the most important people in my life, and I miss you so much. I wanted you to see me graduate high school, I wanted you to see me take my leave for college, and I'm crying to all my family members saying how much I will miss them; I wanted you to be able to see and hold the new baby girl that will soon be born into this family, and how lucky she'd be to have you in her life. Knowing that's not going to happen, I pity her. How you're gone, how you're not here with me anymore; I just can't learn to accept that.

I miss you so much, and even now, the tears are rolling down my cheeks as I can't call to you to comfort me. Ba noi is falling apart without you. Remember the promise you made to her at your wedding? She told me, that you guys promised to live for your children, and aside from that, you guys would live for each other. Why did you have to go and leave her so soon? I can't make her smile the way you can, and no one else can do that. I'd give anything in the world to be able to hear you talk to me, to lecture me and tell me how big I've gotten. If anything, just for a single minute, and that would be okay with me. I just have to learn how to live with the fact that you're not here anymore. I love you with all my heart, and that promise I made to you at the hospital, I will live with all my power to fulfill it. Please be happy in Heaven, and continue watching over me, and the rest of the family okay? I love you Ong noi, and I'll miss you no matter what, but as long as you're free, and not hurting anymore, I'm completely happy. Khoi-li yeu thuong ong noi lam! Chuc mung vui ve nhe?

-Khoi-Li