did I make the right choice? Was I being stupid all over again and screwed up the one shot I had at happiness? My life always seems to go by the "Trial and error" tactic, and I'm gonna point out, that it's not really going so well for me.. Up till my senior year, starting from who knows when, I can't seem to ever make the right choices that actually make me happy. The silly little thing called "love" that people are so desperately in search of; I'm starting to think if it's going to become impossible for me. Should I give up? Yes. Am I going to? No. Guess it goes to show what a stubborn ass I can really be.

I'm really tired of being hurt. I'm tired of putting so much faith into someone, but in the end something happens, and nothing turns out for the better. I try my hardest to be the "good person" I put myself out to be, however I don't think I'm doing a very good job at being that person I label myself as. Maybe I'm just another one of those assholes wandering the streets. Maybe I'm not really cut out for this. There are times where I wish I could just quit; throw in the towel, but that would mean all the years I've put into this would be all a waste. I can't do that, even to myself. So I guess in the end I've concluded that I will keep on trying. However..

I don't think I can give up on that one person just yet. So much has been on the line for this, and how do i have the heart, the strength, to just throw all that away? I've fought this hard for it, and I don't think I'm that willing to call it quits just yet. One final stand at this? That's what I'm going for, and hopefully that's all it's gonna take.