i love how as i was cleaning opening my drawer, the first and only thing that fell out was a letter.. to be more specific, this letter came as a pair with another letter, each with it's own importance. this letter that fell out had the most special importance to me. ironic how that one fell out hmm?

i found myself speechless again as i was reading the letter, as if i was reading it for the first time again. every word, every sentence being written down, every memory.. everything came flashing back at me again. at the same time many thoughts came through my head again.. thinking at how much things have changed. how nothing is the same as it used to be anymore. how much i miss the old days where none of us had a care in the world. i don't know.. everything seemed to disperse so fast i couldn't run after it telling it to stop going away. i guess things happen for a reason, but deep down, i really wish that they didn't happen the way they did.

it happened. it's done with. who am i to say it didn't right? if i had one wish, it would be to rewind everything to the past few years where we didn't even have to worry about any of this. back when we were all enjoying life as friends with everyone else. back before people started to pack up and leave. everything when it was just the 4 of us. everything before things started to change.. there are times when i wish for those so bad i'd find myself aching and hurting on the inside.. i guess time moved forward and left me sitting in the past.. and something else that i came across as i was stumbling through stuff..