Again, late at night and i can't find myself to fall asleep. Lately these nights i've been staying up pretty late. I'm not just trying to occupy my time because it's summer. More of that i'm trying to avoid something. trying to avoid drifting into deep thoughts i know will ache me into the deep middle of the night. even now when i'm wide awake, the thought of you comes running through my mind. i can't seem to erase the memories, the pain, the hold you have on my heart. no matter how many times i try, no matter what i do, i can't get you out of my head. i try occupying myself by going out, having fun to get my mind off the matter, but when i come home from all that and lay on my bed, you're there again.