This weekend was NOT how i expected it would turn out. i expected it to be 3 days of endless fun, laughs, etc. I mean it was fun of course, but i there was like every emotion you could feel packed into 3 days.. so let's break it down shall we?

Happiness: Stayed at cousins for the weekend. stayed up till 5 in the morning everynight and pulling a prank 3 times throughout the night on our other lil cousin. Got to celebrate 4th of july and made our annual traditional bombs w/ kevin, chris and me. although last years was better. away from my parents for 3 days! freakin great.

Dissapointment: Dad doesn't allow me to go on vacation with my cousins cuz he's being a bitch to me. People misunderstand everything that goes around in this family and they take things into their own hands when it's none of their business. Promises not being kept between people (kevin and chris you guys know what i'm talking about). Unecessary fights. People still not understanding what they did, resulting in hurting a close friend of mine.

Anger: kevin n chris' parents and mine don't understand what we have to go through. Dad doesn't understand how much he encloses me into his little bubble. Manipulating us with the old school guilt trip. plans being ruined because of things going on.

Fear: Watched friday the 13th thursday night even though i'm terribly freaked out by scary movies no matter how un-scary they are. 2 hours of nonstop killing and guy popping around every corner. fear of going home to my own house knowing i'll have to spend the rest of the days w/ my parents... esp. dad. -___-

Sadness: Dongseng.. mianhae. i was really rough with you that night, and seeing what you were going through i shouldn't have done that. it's just you should know much it hurts me as your oppa to see you going through this, and the many times i wonder if you're alright, or if you're still hurt. it pains me a lot to see you acting this way and i just don't want to have to see you go through this anymore. but anyways mianhae dongseng :[ saranghae!

So as you call can see, this is a crazy lil weekend i had.. i guess it just comes w/ the package of "brandons life" seeing how my life is already filled w/ endless drama as it is. This summer vacation doesn't feel like a vacaton at all. it just feels like it's building up all the shit to get me ready for next year where it's gonna explode in my face. This should be fun -__-