Let me start this blog off by saying happy fathers day to all the fathers out there! I wish i had that "thankful to have a father" feeling, but i can't really bring my self out to it..

This date.. one year ago was when it all happened. This date would be our one year. I can't believe i'm even still thinking about this after all that happened. Why can't i bring it upon myself to forget it? I didn't really expect a year to go by this fast actually.. Maybe if the year went by slower then i actually might've forgotten by now. I feel really weak and pathetic when it comes to something like this, because it's not in me to forget, no matter how much i want to x.x

She knows the truth behind these feelings, and i thought letting it out to that person would make it all better, but in reality it's not.. Just having her know this makes me remember and hold on to it more. Gah why am i like this? I'm actually pretty speechless as i'm writing this blog, but the hurt and memories keep pouring at me. There are just so many things i would've done differently, so many things i would've changed.. Every little slip up from a friend reminding me of what happened brings me into a deep trance thought. And the big question that still goes through my mind... why?


June 21st.. what a date Kim Jo Han--I Should've Loved You less~