Gah like the title says.. I've been sick since friday, and hell it's taking its toll on me. No i don't have the swine flue (hopefully) but soar throat, coughing, and temporary fever.. Shit not feeling well at all. Friday i was already feeling sick, but when i woke up on saturday, fuck that totally killed me. Throat hurt so much i could barely speak, felt like my head was going to explode.. UGHH

Woke up on saturday getting pretty depressing text messages about something that pretty much ruined my day.. This is not how i pictured things would work out, and on my previous posts, when i said that you guys should talk to me about things that are bugging you, then seriously talk to me about it! it doesn't do anyone any good going behind my back when i'm the one that have the answers to it.. You get mad at me with literally no explanation, so seriously how can i not be mad back? Seriously out of the fucking blue you get mad at me, and i'm literally dumbfounded by the thought because i have no idea what's going on. That's not what best friends are supposed to be doing, and i thought i knew you guys better.

Also fuck the fact that i love r&b and sad asian music.. That type of stuff doesn't help me during times like this.. not at all.. T.T and damn the fact that pretty much for this problem i have no one to talk it out with.. life is not looking out so great right now, and the thing is, the people i usually talk it out with are the ones involved in this.. fucking great. The funny thing is, you guys don't take the time to try and put yourselves in my position. You guys should know me better that i don't do things without a reason, and you guys don't try to see that possibility, but instead you guys jump to conclusions..

I really wish things would just fast forward to the part where we all make up and become friends again. I wish that sadness was an emotion we don't have to feel. I wish that best friends would keep their titles as best friends. Damn life is really fucking itself over big time..