This weekend.. What a merry go round.. I feel like my heart is crying a river, and it's not letting up anytime soon.. And the week coming up isn't going to make me feel any better because i have so much stuff to do i'm gonna go insane.

Why is it that i keep getting so many mixed feelings for people? I'm such an indecisive person as it is, and having this to deal with doesn't help me at all.. i wish time would just stop so i can take a breather from this crazy thing we call life. I've seen so many tears and sadness this week coming from other people, and now the sadness is catching me too. bahh i miss the days back in jr. high when we didn't have to worry about this kind of stuff. but above all, what i really wish is that things would rewind a couple months back. hell there are a lot of things i would've done differently then.

i seriously hate the fact that the only genre of music i really listen to is r&b because it doesn't help my mood at all lol. i need summer to come now! that way all this crazyness can take a break for a couple months hopefully.. i miss my old house a while back when we had a big lake in the backyard.. i miss sitting there at night when i felt sad or confused. i miss seeing the moon reflect off the lake making it look like it was glowing. hell if i still lived there i think i'd be out there every night lol..