This weekend.. What a merry go round.. I feel like my heart is crying a river, and it's not letting up anytime soon.. And the week coming up isn't going to make me feel any better because i have so much stuff to do i'm gonna go insane.

Why is it that i keep getting so many mixed feelings for people? I'm such an indecisive person as it is, and having this to deal with doesn't help me at all.. i wish time would just stop so i can take a breather from this crazy thing we call life. I've seen so many tears and sadness this week coming from other people, and now the sadness is catching me too. bahh i miss the days back in jr. high when we didn't have to worry about this kind of stuff. but above all, what i really wish is that things would rewind a couple months back. hell there are a lot of things i would've done differently then.

i seriously hate the fact that the only genre of music i really listen to is r&b because it doesn't help my mood at all lol. i need summer to come now! that way all this crazyness can take a break for a couple months hopefully.. i miss my old house a while back when we had a big lake in the backyard.. i miss sitting there at night when i felt sad or confused. i miss seeing the moon reflect off the lake making it look like it was glowing. hell if i still lived there i think i'd be out there every night lol..




Hahahahaha after school today was the best! So Pia, Aileen and i planned to go to the shoppes after school, but PIA ditched us cuz her mom came early to take her home.. so it was just an AB day at the shoppes haha.

Freezing cold, went to Panera Bread for the first time for me hahaha. Clam chowder in a bread bowl~ mmmmmmmmm!After that, we went out and sat on the benches, in the freezing cold, and sang our lil hearts out to the same song for about 2 hours HAHA! insomnia -- craig david~

BEST PART OF TODAY WAS... we were in Forever 21 cuz Aileen was looking for something, and i ran into a freakin angel! CARISSA RAE MARTIN~! for those who don't know her, she's a singer, dancer, actress, all of the above haha ;] talk about a perfect package! so i wanted to talk to her sooo bad, but i was beyond scared D: AILEEN YOU SHOULDA PUSHED ME HARDER! i got up so close to her too hahaha! ;] but damn she has a boyfriend :[ i'm so sad after that.. but oh well~! i got to meet her today, and that totally made my day hahaha! now all i gotta do is meet CATHY NGUYEN and my life is complete!!!!!














= 4. Not a very hard math problem right? Many things in life are like this, not very difficult at all, but there is always someone who can't seem to figure it out. However, i refuse to give up on helping them understand, because they are my friends.












This was by far the best birthday i've ever had. I love these two girls Gelene Cabacungan and Nikki Horita~! Damn these two are the FIRST people to actually start making me tear up in person like that lol.. and they got it on camera!! I'M RUINED T.T But this was the amazing that i was speechless to words hahaha.

So first they came to my house holding up the poster you see up there, ALL nice and stuff, lamentated, saying all our little inside jokes and the countless pictures we took together haha. So after my lil tear fest i was about to have, they blindfolded me and took me on a car ride to hell knows where haha. So after a pretty scary car ride, we arrived, and i was being led BLINDFOLDED to where we were going to go, and it was SHABU SHABU which was the first day out we've been as the 3 of us =] there we had dinner, and after that we went to CUEEE! took our family pics haha. After that we had dessert, and it was MY turn to surprise them ;] Ordered a GIANT ice cream sundae that even us 3 had trouble finishing haha. It was priceless seeing their reaction as it came lol.

After that, i THOUGHT we were done, but they were all "time to blindfold you again" and i was like wtf?! So we went for another drive, and we came to this place that was hella loud! i could hear all these people talking and laughing, and i'm just thinking to myself "wow this is embarrasing being led blindfolded to a place crowded with people". And they took of my blindfold only for me to be standing in front of the CHUCK E CHEESE BAND, and i literally jumped and had a heart attack! Scared the shit out of me LOL! man it's been years since i've been to this place, and it was actually fun! Just seeing 3 teenagers walking around yelling and playing games, must be fun for the people to watch haha. So after a while we finally went home, and i couldn't help but smile for the rest of the night.

That was such a special thing for anyone to do to me, and you guys have no idea how much that meant to me. I love you guys sooo much words can't even explain. You guys are the best friends ever! I'm so glad i went to ayala now haha. seeing how i got to meet two awesome people like you guys =] Nikkis birthday is next in line out of us 3! I'm gonna get you back twice as hard hahaha! SO WATCH OUT! ;]

Oh yeah! Just want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DONG YOUNG BAE!!! 당신에게 축 생일을 바라고, 당신 살아있는 우물 가까운 장래에 희망하기!


Why Cristin?! I am not happy with you right now..
I TOLD YOU NOT TO DO THAT LIKE HOW MANY MONTHS AGO?!?! but do you listen to Dr. HO?! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! -___- you should really start listening to people lol.. so i like how you're sitting right next to me reading this as i'm writing it haha. OH YEAH! BLOGSPOT WORKS IN SCHOOL NOW!! so happy hahaha. Ok this was a short notice just for Cristin D. Magat since she's part of ABCD i must feel concerned lol.. I'll do a real update tonight. LISTEN TO OTHER PEOPLE CRISTIN!!


I feel so relieved now that half the things i had to do aren't due tomorrow. This was probably the ONLY smart thing Ms. Hordoan has done all year by making things due next week. Now i can actually breathe! Shit hahaha. Too bad i still have a crap load of things to do, but on the bright side they aren't due tomorrow so it's all good! Cept for the damn chemistry stuff tomorrow, and the TEST tomorrow that i know i'm going to fail because i have no clue how to do this chapter..

So much fun this week =] Went out with ABCD group, D for Derek since we added him in haha =] Love this group. Always chilling at the shoppes, eating A LOT of food, hanging at the library to study haha. (we're nerds i know, but stfu we're asian!) . Having ABC freakin out about our futures lol! UCI FTW! Messing with Cristin about her new LOVERRR~ Cristin Aledia hahahaha! jk. (cristin if he reads this blog you're fucked haha). Having Cristin drive me home going 60MPH ON A TRAFFIC STREET! damn girl haha. but i love how she drives! she's this 4ft. 10" girl, and you see the steering wheel literally like 3 cm. in front of her LOL. Hilarious shit right there. This group is great. Love them.

You all remember that song "love" by musiq soulchild i said i was determined to learn?! Well i got that down! fuck it was hard hahaha. but at least i got it now ;] Now all i gotta do is wait for Jaine Yang to finish learning it so we can record this sucka hahaha. Music, singing, WOW! Been doing a lot of that! That means i'm in a good mood haha. Right now i'm trying to learn a new song called "try smiling" by Daesung, which is this korean song, but the lyrics are really meaningful and they're so sad lol.. But that's my next song mission =]

So today after school, Pia and i went to the choir room because i was thinking about signing up for auditions to join VOCALS ENSAMBLE. i am quite indecisive about this, but Pia ended up signing my name in anyways.. Shit so now i'm kinda wondering if i should stick through with this, or if i should not. Because it takes up so much time, and i don't feel like i'm that dedicated. What do you guys think? OPINIONS PLEASE?! should i do this? and tryouts are next friday, SHITTT

Song stuck on my head again haha. "only look at my" by tae yang!!! DONG YOUNG BAE!

naram barabwa -- tae yang~

So right now my body is aching like shit and i don't know why.. i have a million college information and brochures in front of me that i got today with Aileen during lunch from the career center haha. had to work today and i'm overly exhausted right now. Head feels like it's going to explode, and i just wanna sleep, but i have so much shit to do ! NAY! (insider with cristin and aileen haha). Speaking of cristin and aileen, the 3 of us have been total nerds for the past few weeks, and now we make up group "ABC"! if you don't get why we are named that then.. wow.. LOL!




This week i felt so appreciated and loved for. This was probably the best birthday i've had =] i just want to thank all my friends. i love you guys!!











WOOOT so today was my 17th Birthday! Today was sooo much fun, and i owe that to my awesome friends and family =]

SCHOOL! Just coming to school i got a heartwarming greeting by everyone. Bindi, Karen, Kelly, Mavis, Christine, you guys are great =] It's always fun watching you guys goof around and being stupid haha. And today at lunch christine got a solo for poly!! What a bday present right!? hahaha so cool!

Pia and Aileen!! HAHA thanks for making me walk to the senior parking lot in the morning only telling me i don't need to so i gotta walk all the way back PIAAA! But thanks for the present you two! i totally knew what it was right when i saw the bag was from barnes and nobles hahaa! AILEEN WE ARE GONNA BE SUMMER NERD BUDDIES! :D

Cristin D. Magat! Haha thank you so much for "lil ho". even though you asked for him back =P jerk..but you always brighten up my day cristin! and thank you for doing that on my birthday today :D FUCK MR. MOUNTS DEBATE! THIS IS DEPRESSING LOOKING AT PEOPLE KILLING ANIMALS!

Laryssa and Brooke! you guys are lil ms. bakers LOL! You guys made theeee best brownies and cookies =] ask anyone! they all loved it when i gave em some haha. freakin moochers. at least this time you didn't make me pay Laryssa hahaha! Malia I LOVE YOU~! hahaha best chem and math buddy=] and you know you love my singing~

Gelene and Nikki! LOL thank you guys for a crazy lunch! the cupcakes i thought were meant for EATING! who knew it would turn into an all out cupcake war! You guys totally got my face and it was so nasty going through the last 2 periods like that hahaha. BUT I GOT YOU NIKKI! just wait gelene. i'm going to SMASHHH a cupcake into your face haha! And you two said you're not even done with my present yet.. WHAT IS IT?! i am so curious now T.T

DONGSAENG~! haha thanks for being there for me today ;D you always know how to make me smile~! DONG YOUNG BAE~ hahahaha! and you sicko for choosing a picture that had THAT poster in the background haha! freakin pervert. I'm curious as to what you're sending me though. Now i know how you felt when i made you wait for your present haha. damn i guess this is revenge for making you wait so long >< OPPA AND DONGSAENG~!

And SURPRISINGLY my lil sister Britney!! I came home today into my room, and it was covered with posters and banners saying happy birthday brandon! and she POPS out of the closet all "SURPRISE!" haha even i gotta admit that was cute. So i guess today OUT OF THE VERY FEW INSTANCES where i will love her haha. The pic up there was the banner she made me. Cute huh?

THANKS EVERYONE FOR MAKING TODAY SUCH A GREAT BIRTHDAY! i think this was the most fun birthday i've had so far =] Sadly my dad didn't even say happy birthday to me yet.. but oh well that's okay. I have my mom, sis, BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD to make up for that. I'm so thankful for what the year has brought me. and the funs now over yet! PARTAYYY THIS SATURDAY AT MY HOUSE! you all better come ;]


Ok just a short lil notice. So yesterday i was out of school for a day because i got sick big time, and now in comp tech. class (aka my blogger/homework/study/sleeping class) i'm trying to cram in studying for a spanish test that i didn't know i had, scrambling to find a lab printout for lab #9 because teacher took it off his site, get my math notebook together because it's due either tomorrow or thursday.. Crap this is gonna be a hell week! AND ON MY BIRTHDAY!!! Cristin D. Magat and i have our history presentation on friday, and we didn't even start yet! Stupid debate on animal experimentation! Damn procrastination bites big time! AIYA! hate lagging like this. but only 28 more days of school! i think.. or somewhere in that number hahaha.


LOVEEE~! Damnnn this song~! I am determined to learn this song! But hell it's a hard song T.T i'm having a hell of a time trying to get it right lol! but i am determined =]


Oh my goodness. This girl right here~~ freakin karen had to send mark and i the link to the dress she was gonna buy, but it HAD to be modeled by THIS GIRL~ (whose name i do not know lol..) freakin angel from up above! Freakin asian models are always beautiful to no end~ screw the american ones. can't even compete with this!!!


















Omg so i am FREAKING OUT right now because i am starting to cough, and i'm so paranoid that i might have swine flu! OMG! Yesterday i started coughing, and then this morning i woke up and my throat started hurting! Brittany said that i don't have swine flu because she went to the doctors for the same thing that i'm having, but i'm still scared as fuck! i'm not even kidding LOL!

i mean this sounds hella stupid right now, but fuck if i get swine flu my life is fucked! i don't want to die at this age! Cristin D. Magat is not making me feel any better because she's telling me to get the fuck away from her, and Phil told me that i won't live to be 20! My friends are great right? -___-

Tonight ima go to the doctors to check up and see if i have the SWINE FLUUUUUUU! Last night i told me mom that i was coughing, and i swear she acted as if i was going to die! She ran to my dad and was all "HONEY BRANDON'S COUGHING! WE NEED TO GET HIM TO THE DOCTOR!" haha shit's hilarious. Ok so i just wanted to let you know that i might have the swine flu =] fucking great right?!? RIGHT?!