Like the title says, fuckmylifeeeee. This spring break has been nothing but trouble for me since the start of it. This whole break, I've been getting nothing but SHITTTT from my parents. "Why aren't you doing your hw?!" - "How come you're just lazying around?!" etc. IT'S SO FUCKING ANNOYING!! I hate how I'm always trying my best, and to them it's like I'm doing nothing. And even as of right now, I'm talking to one of my best friends PIA REDUBLO about what is happening. Like I wish I can tell my parents even a quarter of the things I tell her and a few other people. It's sad, and right now I'm talking to her about it SOOOO loud wishing my parents would hear it.

My parents always go on saying how I'm not responsible, and how I'll never amount to anything. They always say how I'll fail in life and how I can't do anything in the future. Seriously for those of you who know me, do you guys really think I'm going to fail at life? PIA and KARI of all people know how much I try, and how much time I put into my schoolwork, and my parents think I do shit. They always ask me how I never talk to them about stuff, and how I never talk to them the way I talk to my friends, but helllllo!? Isn't that asnwer pretty obvious?! I would NEVER in my life talk to them the way I talk to my close friends. I didn't tell that about my girlfriend(ex), drama, inside life, and I never plan to tell them. But the meaning of this blog is for them to hopefully read this. For today in 11 hours I will be at the library with Pia studying, and I will leave this open, hoping that they will read this, to even get a glimpse of how my life is.

My parents have no idea how much crap I have to go through with my life. They never even take a second to try and put themselves in my shoes for the slightest bit to even think about what I have to go through. Hopefully if they read these blogs, they will get a hint of what is happening. I don't care if they read this, because everything that's happened, happened. All in the past, behind me, so even if they say anything they can't change it. I'm so fed up with this, and thank god my dad blew up on me, when I was on the phone with Pia. I'm so glad one person got to see the side of my dad that he would try to cover up by acting like a good father around my friends. Maybe reading some of these will be good. They get to see a side of my life I've been keeping from them for the past 16 years. So today I will be at the library later and I'll leave this on. PRAYING that they will not be BLIND and miss this. Done blogging now. THANK YOU SO MUCH PIA FOR SITTING THROUGH ALL THAT WHINNING AND VENTING!!! I couldn't have asked for a better friend than you =] and my mom says friends aren't worth it.. FUCK THAT!