Dang not in a very good mood right now.. I know this is so out of my head to be doing, but why am I suddenly getting flash backs of the good ol days.. Why am I suddenly feeling the hurt inside all over again.. Why is it that I'm not strong enough to throw away the pictures and memories that I keep hanging on too.

I just had to be stupid and open up a file that contained all the pictures of the days when we were happy.. Smiles, laughter, hugs, happiness... UGHH motherrrr.. Killing me inside right now to no end. When I was looking at those pictures, so many memories came pouring back at me that I swear I wanted to cry.

I still kept the keepsake she's given me, and when I took it out again, it was rusting away.. It had copper colors all over it, on the name, date, year, everything.. That's so ironic right? It's like a symbol telling me this was never going to work out.. God this whole tragedy happened like what 2 months ago?! Why is it that I'm brought back to all the pain again?

I feel like screaming, screaming so loud as to the point the whole world can hear me. I wanna punch the crap out of my wall right now. I wanna cry away all the memories that are being kept inside me. I wanna forget all the things that happened. Why does God give us all a heart just to have it being crushed in the end..?

-Brandon..