Damn honestly I don't think I've felt this out of it since forever. My mind has not been focused on anthing today, or for the past few days actually. I just seem to stare off into space for the longest time, and everytime I go home I just wanna go to sleep until the next day. Idk what's going on with me, but what I can say is that things are not normal, at least for me anyways..

For the past few days, I feel that I've been drifting away from certain people. Family or friends I'm not going to mention. Normally this sort of thing wouldn't bother me, but what it seems like is that I'm drifting away from people that are close to me, and that's really what's eating me up inside. I really hate the fact how you make a friend, and then literally the next day they treat you as if they've never met you before. It hurts for reals! I'm getting tired of opening myself up to people and letting them be a part of my life, but in the end they just throw that away. Honestly what the fuck is that right? I'm only a human being, not some toy that you can just throw away when you're tired of me. True friends wouldn't do that to me. If those people were really my friends, they wouldn't throw away all the laughs, jokes, tears, sadness that we've been through yaknow? Like shit honestly this thing that's happening is starting to make me have a whole new outlook on EVERYBODY, exception of a few. Ugh my mind has been going crazy trying to figure out what to do. I've been losing sleep, not doing homework, drifting away from my little sister, parents, seriously what the fuck I really don't want to be suffering like this. If any of you have read my pervious posts, you can all see pretty clearly that my life is not exactly the simplest life, and now I have to deal with this shit? I'm sick and tired as fuck with all this. I guess you really can't judge a book by it's cover..

Look guys I'm sorry if I sound like a whiny lil bastard right now, but this has been eating at me for quite some time now that I just feel I gotta get it out. For those of you who took the time to read this, I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Looks like you are the ones who actually care, and for that I thank you. I'll be updating more in the future, and hopefully after I get this mess cleared up, my future posts won't be so emo haha! Till then!

-Brandon