What is it that sets us on end to find the special someone we can trust? Is it the fact that they've been through it with you since the beginning? Was it the fact that they know you like the back of their hand? Or was it just because they said those words such as "you can trust me" even when you hardly know them?

Lately I've been finding it hard to find people who I can actually go to without having them pour to the whole world my thoughts and feelings. So at this very point I suppose I can only narrow it down to 4 people that I can truly trust with my life, and they know who they are. However, these days I find it too easy to trust people, and I honestly don't know who to trust, or if I am able to trust them nonetheless. These days, people always use the word "I promise" or "i swear", etc, but do they really mean it? Well now I don't feel that they mean shit when they say things like that. Using an example from a friend of mine, her friend went through some pretty weird and difficult changes, and he said "I promise I will try to change" and she took that promise. However as time went on, days turn to weeks, and weeks turned to months, there was no sign of that change. However she hung on with every hope that she had that he would change. In the end it didn't look like he would ever change, so that promise was left unfullfilled. I'm not saying this to point out all the obvious bitches in the world, but when you make a promise, why don't you bother keeping it? Don't bother saying those things just to make the person you want happy or sured, but isn't the truth better than anything? If you know that you can't keep that promise, then hell don't bother making a promise. I've seen too many people get hurt, even myself, and for mistakes that I made, that promises are not something to be messed around with. They may just seem like words, but having those words placed on someone you really care about, and having those words broken, well then let's just say things aren't going to go well for you.

Seriously, I'm getting fed up with people who always lie around people to make things easier for them, and if you're smart about this, which hardly anyone is, then know that in the end, you're just going to have a lot of shit on your shoulder to deal with. Make your life, as well as the people around you's lives better.