Things are a lot different than what I expected high school to be. At the end of my 8th grade year, I would get tons of advice from people saying that I shouldn't be afraid of high school, and that it was the best year that they've ever had. Hearing those things just made me look forward to it. However, that's not the case now that I've come to experience it up to my junior year..
I must admit, the first two years of high school was actually fun. Getting to meet new people, experiencing the dances ;), and all that high school stuff. But then when junior year rolled along, everything changed..
So much has happened already just within the first month of school. The endless hours of homework, stupid teachers who can't teach, hence making YOU suffer for it, constant lectures from your parents to try harder. But how is this all bad? I mean everyone has to go through this right? But that's not the point I'm trying to bring about junior year.. It's the constant drama that never seems to cease. Day by day, this monstrosity occurs over and over. I see many of my friends depressed, many of them in tears, and many of them wishing they could just go back to the days where we never had to worry about this thing called "drama". Speaking from what happened recently, as soon as you think you've solved this problem, something else occurs, and I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being friends with someone, and then the next day, they throw you aside making new "friends". I'm tired of always being there for someone, and in the end all I am to them is just a tool. I'm tired of trying to befriend someone for another persons sake, but they treat you like shit. If I knew what high school held for me, I probably would've just flunked the rest of my life and not have to go through all this that will scar me for the rest of my life. My main friends that have been there with me from the start, I thank you for all you've done, and we're still trying to get through this. But how much more I can bear with it I don't know.. My little sister anxiously awaiting the start of her freshman year, I can easily say, "Have fun, and just be ready for whatever lies in store for you". She would ask me what does that mean, but telling her now might ruin the "fun" for her hehe..
So this is the end of my first blog, and thanks to Pia doing this, I can see why. This helps a lot, and I encourage you guys do to this too. Who knows what might happen right? =]